ANGST–poem

I’ve come again to sit and worry myself about my own misjudgments

my own ignorance envelopes my sanity and I’m lost

there is no longer any excuse except for the simple fact

i allowed the presence of an outside force to trick me–again

in my solitude, its intrusion suffocates me

i can no longer stand tall against this crushing wave

my silence is deafening; it rings loud within me

falling to my knees, i cower beneath its weight

to disappear is my only consequence

to accept and allow the pressure to confine me

to exert its force upon my soul, my being

and to let it go to take away its crushing force i must accept its existence

to break free, I must conquer this trepidation surrounding me

absorb its anguish in abundance

perish within the pressure of its constraints

and escape