Losing Our Humanity

What does it take to write a blog and keep it up? Ideas and an audience…if you’re missing one of these, it just doesn’t happen! Let’s start with ideas…easy at first, but then they wane…and not only the ability to create ideas but also the sense of making them interesting…will people get inspired? Is there too much information? Not enough? All these things one has to navigate in order to PLEASE the audience…get them to read… all of it. Easy right? Not quite…because where is the audience? It’s out there…in cyber land…which makes it somewhat easier to write but less easy to maintain that stream of writing.

The audience is perceived to be real, but that audience is negotiated by a lot of things…people’s time and interest, for instance…and feedback, although not non-existent, is few and far between and one must work diligently for what now seems like nothing. Just giving you a behind the scenes peek at what I’m going through with the writing of a blog…interaction is important! I know it’s difficult to talk about a lot of the things I present in my blogs, but it is important for me to get feedback…and I DO get some…don’t get me wrong…and I really appreciate what I DO get; it’s just difficult to keep it going…just letting you guys know… 

So, struggling a bit right now to keep all my ducks in a row…I did a med change and I’m feeling the effects…went golfing for the first time in nearly 2 months yesterday…far cry from being out every day when I was in Florida…a lot is different than the six months I spent dwelling in a 55+ community for the winter.

What’s changed? What’s stayed the same? My environment has obviously changed, but so have I. People are becoming obstacles that I need to overcome instead of the insightful, pleasant, gurus they once were to me. I used to be energized by them. Now, I become depleted…and I think of boundaries…have mine become too loose? I feel pushed and pulled in different directions. I’m allowing that…that’s what we do…we allow things to happen to us instead of taking control and making things happen for ourselves. “Ew, people” is now my favourite t-shirt. I didn’t used to be able to wear it because I loved people and what they brought into my life. Now, for instance, I see a lot of phones in people’s hands…in fact, likely the best way to know if you’re being listened to these days is to text someone! I’m serious! It’s really sad but becoming a hard core problem in my eyes. Texting is actually a better form of communication if you want to make sure you’re being heard! So, I prefer to text. Lol…and I become part of the problem! Scary world we live in, isn’t it? Losing the sacredness of hardcore friendships to words on a page–so we know we’re being listened to–sad, very sad.

I’m kinda done with it all. People and bullshit. And everyone does it. You are not lost to the baggage you haul around with you, I don’t care what you say. You have it. And you unknowingly share it with others, in your relationships…usually your closest ones…cuz where else is it going to come out? Maybe that’s why we’re always on our phones—even sitting around a campfire—we all want to be heard. We communicate using electronic devices instead of face to face! We get our needs met through technology instead of through each other! We’re losing our humanity…really…we are! And I guess that explains why I’m frustrated with people right now—we’re being uncommunicative on a human level…on our phones instead of enjoying the fire…I’m guilty of this also; I mean, right now my sister is sitting beside me—on her phone—and I’m doing this on mine… 

So, as I navigate my own slippery slope, I travel alongside you…not in front and not behind…mearly beside. May we share together and raise each other up to our own standards…infiltrating the humanity of us all. Here’s to the production and sharing of future ideas and experiences. Back to basics. Let’s ride the waves with support for each other…I’m here…you’re there…we can do this together!

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